pull me back no more

Things are so complicated as it is now. Running away will not be a great solution. Facing it will be the great one. Well...As i 'hate' the situation i am having right now..maybe i am too tired and fed up,i just let things flow..

Like what Zue told me once,"you are too good to be true,sayang,". Yah..am i? Come on. Open your eyes. See the truth and aren't yo able to see a girl standing there holding a flower of hope? If u can't,wel..too bad. She might run away from your sight with a sad smile. The flower of hope will wilt as soon as u accept another flower of hope. I do not like people with klishe attitude. Making my mind and physical sicked!

Can't you see the 'obstacles' that i had gone through just to hold you arms? Do you ever think of that 'situation"? Guess u never. If you do,you are still a human. A human with stupid mistakes. Why am i making myself into a deep situation? Is that my nature being ANTONIA? I really had no clue for that.

Counting days hoping that i will meet someone that will give the bright and radiant red roses with an honesty means. Assuring that life is not dark. Life is wonderful. It just that you had a bad dream. A dream that you will never ever forget.

I hate to blame others of what had happened. I really(at the moment) couldn't forget a.k.a get over it. Times. Will heal everything. it will. Now i realise,being a young lady is very difficult.Many things need to be taken care of.

I really hope that i could get back to 2008 and changed everything.Not telling that i am so regretful and i did mention that i do not want to get back to the past.Now,i really want to. Because 'banyak hati akan terluka'. What mistakes that i could make more? Sadly to say,i am drifting myself away from everyone. I am more to 'alone'. Rather playing and saying 'hide behnd the bushes' words and being so sarcasam. More loud than before whenever i feel that people with 'lowest' mind.

People with greed never ever satsified with what they have. They will crave for more and more. How many good people surround these greed poeple,they will just ignore it. What left for them?A group of people whom we called 'FAMILY'..That's important.

Being so honest with so many relationships,things like karma.
Brother Love said 'Ladies,don't fool yourselves over sweet words"