bed full of thorns.

i am slowly to walk away from some people that i feel unnecessary to be with me. Indirectly i do not want to have connections with these type of people. How much i feel so hard to walk a step ahead makes me wonder less about people's feeling. It's me who i really think much right now. Kinda not a cool thing to do actually but i feel that's the best and only way.

It's not a worthless thing to do. just let things be won't be a great thing to do and that's not my style. i rather face and fix it...but most of the times, i failed..*sigh*. How many chances should i give away just to make that person to realise one's mistake? I am so tired and i cry almost everyday just to make myself faking to be happy..My life is yes,getting better and i became more selfish than ever.I wont be the old me.I am happy with the new me.Not anymore stupid and very naive. People surround me they do have motive to topple me down.And for sure it's the hardest thing to believe people now days. Some people hates hypocrites and let me tell you guys,people are hypocrites..they never be real.Maybe they are real but for a quite sometimes. I just sometimes lost in my own track...Need some directions..clear and safe.
My grandmother always reminded me not to be someone that i labelled(from my understanding)-"ORANG yang BERPURA-PURA ELOK"

i am considering myself as a weak person..weak at the outside and developing to be stronger person than ever. I used to be beleive in everything but now i know..do not believe in everything.I just do my part well and will get the results as i am longing for. Happiness do come when i have achieve something that i am longing for. Not some kind of 'stupid-love-game"

People yang tak sedar diri tak akan kemana and they are so immature even though they speak like 40 year old people. Maturity means your actions towards life and the decision that you made to make the life as a great path to go through.stupid mistakes can be avoided if we learnt and realised and do not make the history repeats.Yang tak serik-serik,do not blame anything.

feel so sad to see and watch the people that i care turn to be monsters and so do i..be the monster...hmmpph...